RHP

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Kinky Not Easy

January 11 2017

I'm raging, finding it difficult to hold my tongue and silence my fingers. I'm seriously pissed so please forgive me, I'm about to vent. I have received a number of messages overnight & a few texts, all of which offered, what they percieved to be sexual pleasure. I supposed, in some warped reality, I should be flattered by this. I am not. Why should my fetish negate manners and socail grace? What happened to the intricate dance between us that somehow relegated manners and decorum unnecessary? Am I the only person who still believes that an introduction is an invitation? It is an offer to partake in something or in someone. I am sharp, I am insightful and I have a high emotional IQ. Just because I am not a sexually dominant woman, does not mean I am a mindless ragdoll. In all of these emails, all that was mentioned is what they wanted to do TO me. "I'm going to fuck your ass until I blow." "You're going to choke on my cock till I come down your throat." "I want to dump my load all over your pretty face." "You cunt slut, I wan to rape your ass." Well excuse me, but might I have your name first? What the fuck happened to enticing me to WANT yoi? What happened to the magic of desire, anticipation, to a god damn introduction? I am a deviant to be sure, I like my sex a little (ok a lot) left of center - that does not make me cheap nor does it make me easy. It makes me fucking selective! If I am to truly engage, to lose all inhibitions, to allow a dominant access to my body, more importantly to relinquish control of my mind, allow him to consume me - he had better be WORTH it. People bang on about trust within the D/s dynamic - but what's that really all about? If I do not see something in a man that will make me grow, if I do not look up to him, admire him...no, I need to go deeper. I will not fuck a person that I don't want to be. It is that simple. Best me or get out of my way! There is always an exchange of energies and I have ignorantly accepted much bullshit into my life because of my kink. The trade off, my soft heart for release. I'm sure I am not the first woman on earth who made the mistake of confusing love for mind blowingly great sex. I know I am not the first submissive to emotionally break beneath the weight of a psychopathic dominant. They are far more common place than the compassionate, awakened alpha I seek. I'm kinky as fuck and I have no unressolved issues that tag along with that. I just like what I like. I do take offense to the common belief that I am easy, that no effort is required to capture my attention. I take offense to reading the same email eight different ways from mwn who completely miss the whole fucking point. Surrender is EARNED and believe me, mine is fucking WORTH it. I am an ALPHA submissive. That means that you have met your match. I'm a rare breed and I am exceptionally proud of this aspect of my nature & sexuality. I earnes it! My submission and surrender is an act of will, I am not acting out unressolved bullshit. IF I AM ON MY KNEES IT IS BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE THERE. It means you are WANTED, it means you are being ADORED in that moment beacuase that is what gets me off and there is no greater respect I can offer than to meet your gaze from my knees. My surrender, no, my time and interest will require a hell of a lot more than, I require a hell of a lot more than single sentence texts, monosyllabic answers. No I am not a quick fuck or a fuck buddy. If you want me, it is going to require more than, "Hey Babe, you wanna fuck?" You needn't wear a suit to be sophisticated, you don't need position in order to have authority. You DO need decorum, manners and the ability to master YOUR OWN DAMN SELF before you even contemplate putting yourself in my presence. If the D/s dynamic is what you want, you need to be more than me, or stop wasting my time. - Posted from rhpmobile

Comments

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  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Your comment sounds a bit homophobic. Sorry, but for me, the ass is not an essential part of sexual play but very nice with the right partners, and very satisfying for a lot of men. So your suggested replies ?? Sorry, nothing personal, but this open sexual world we play in, those kinds of comments probably won't fit too well, certainly not with me, but each to their own 😃

  • madotara69

    madotara69

    9 years ago

    the frustration extends to the message you have not received, it so seems. If you want a daddy, then maybe you are not asking the right questions, expectations, want for better understanding etc, thus discombobulated by the efforts of what appears to be, ' those with the intellectual capacity of a toasted muffin', maybe true, maybe an terminological inexactitude, respectfully. Oh but for your empathy to shine, now never a better time girl. Cheer up, kinks are cool, some are here simply to get a hit of dopamine by pressing the send button more so than what is sent, they like your picture, this is all about them, you are a digital fantasy of some who are addicts of the 'likes' of the ' www., surely no intentions to upset you so such as, would be foreseen by these people alike, we all have our thing. I think, respecting someone, does not mean looking up to, or a better person, you can be yourself, equal, and that's cool :) Mado Mado Tara xx

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'LaFemmeFontaine' I almost laughed my wine through my nose! Thank you Darling! What a brilliant come back! - Posted from rhpmobile See, you are already having fun with it. Great to hear. Oh and I_touch. Those comments are neither my beliefs nor a direct shot at anyone or anything. I was merely trying to give an example to back up my position. I thought they fit the initial messages quite well.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    you have stirresd a worthy pot here all I see after being off this site for over 5 yrs is a lack of respect. We are all on this site for a reason and they do differ but some people just have no respect and yes I agree predominately uneducated males. Peace xx drops the Mic

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    This is one of those inevitable things about the online experience. Getting mad about only hurts you - some of the are trolls looking to ruin someone's day but most think those approaches set them apart / get your attention. I block and move on happy that they made that decision really easy for me. Anyone genuinely interested in building a rapport with someone isn't going to post that rubbish. If I'm going to receive a vile message at least make it interesting. I've been lucky that 99.9999% of people will be respectful when I've responded that I'm not interested. The ones who were rude about it tended to be the "Hi how r u?" ones. As for the gangbang question - doesn't make a difference. Some people think being open about sex means we are DTF anyone. Like a walking glory hole. Doesn't matter what we are into. The experienced ones learn that we usually more discerning because we want 'more' out of our sexual and interpersonal experiences - intellectually and physically. The experienced ones understand that if I just wanted my holes filled I could walk into in any bar and get it from any number of randoms.

  • Sawadee

    Sawadee

    9 years ago

    Seriously , You're being presumptuous there.. If as you say a man need's to be louder than the dickheads to get attention he deserves everything he gets.. and that's sweet fuck all. All that means is he's expected to join dickheads , not stand apart. One of the reasons I'm a guest is because I refuse to be treated with the contempt some like to dish out. I'm content to bide my time and wait til someone contacts me . That way I know they're serious about being here and not looking to man bash... Besides ' no one puts this lil black duck in a corner...😜

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    So you don't know how to get a woman's attention without being an arsehole?!. It's not what I meant but hey, stand back and waiting is a good strategy too. :p Waves to Jayme in the friend zone. Haha.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Nice and if anyone is up to organise...... I am keen for a bi gangbang...... - Posted from rhpmobile

  • Sawadee

    Sawadee

    9 years ago

    That was like getting a smack in the mouth then getting it kissed better.. lol.. Truth is , I wouldn't know how to get the attention of a woman being a arsehole.. Never tryed ... In the meantime , I'm just happy to bide my time.. No point in being lumped into the dreaded single man catogory for no other reason than being male. Waves back at ya... 😎

  • jedi_knight

    jedi_knight

    9 years ago

    I use a pretty simple filter .....spelling and a coherent message ! If a person can't communicate at a decent level ...no matter what their pics look like ...they are not for me!

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    No matter who you are or what cooks your goose respect goes a lot further than some person declaring what they want to do to you. The last person that tried that on me got told point blank he'd best look else where because I wasn't a porn queen or a prostitute. Just a normal woman looking for a bit of fun. Amazing how some think it's all about them not mutual respect and fun between 2 consenting adults. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    You say if a person can't spell or communicate properly, they're not for you? Are you serious? So you meet strictly Australian, no tolerance for the millions in our country who weren't born here, English isn't their native language? I'm also offended on behalf of those who struggle with the language for other reasons. People do the best they can and different factors can influence their ability or opportunity to learn. It's just not a black and white issue and a lifelong struggle for some. Sorry, your filters are your filters, we're here for our own enjoyment, but I was a bit saddened by your comment

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    No you're not an asshole, bless your little cotton socks 😘 and I like that you're not an asshole. Now can you tell me how not to be one? 😎 I'm trying, I'm really trying 😊

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Well done Sir! *waving* Enjoy your day. It's certainly a hot one. Today I shall also be standing in the shade. :)

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    People are attracted to what they are attracted to. I'd only get offended by jedi's comments if he said that people who people who had terrible spelling or communicate were useless wastes of space. He says that they are things that attract him - in the same way that you frequently express your opinion about the kinds of people you are attracted to, and what you aren't turned on by. Given that much of this thread is about the importance of communicating what you want, and creating a connection with someone based on messages, I think it's completely appropriate.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    To be honest about this people see dominance as king there WRONG. The sub had the dominance as at any time it does not feel right it's stops. It called a Safe word plan and simple - Posted from rhpmobile

  • Sawadee

    Sawadee

    9 years ago

    that's easy. ... you're a lil black duck too. Lil black duckies often lead with their chin then deal with the consequences later... 😜. So don't change anything , you're made of that dinkum stuff that you just can't bottle. Out there , entertaining , sexy , so what you worried about ? 😀. 🔦. 👌

  • Sawadee

    Sawadee

    9 years ago

    Sir. ? I can't even remember being dubbed .. but if you say so it must be true.. Could be the heat ? Sir Jay... Got a nice ring to it.. huh .? 😀

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    When I get messages like that, I just have a laugh at the sender and tell fact that they are so disconnected from reality that they think those kinds of messages are wanted. Or perhaps they get off on knowing that most women are shocked my messages like that. With way, those kinds of men get about two seconds of my time while I block them. Then I move on! No point getting your knickers in a knot and all worked up over idiots. Who cares? You'll be better off if you stop allowing ransoms get to you. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Or the Aussie beer belly hick is rampant onhere and its sad.Don't give up you will find the right guy whowill put you first and your needs.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    ...for someone with an imperforate command of the English language. Doubtless verbal evisceration followed. Sic 'em tigress!

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    I'm more for finding out the only way to know!!!! Less talk more action!!! - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    To all who have added their thoughts, humour and hummannes to this thread. I've had a great laugh at some and have chosen to disregard others. I suppose forums such as this are a little like the petri dish of life - all manner if life magnified there amd not all of it good. I have really appreciated the genuine effort and the messages that followed. No longer wet behind the ears when it comes to writing here - I'm a lot less intense and less shocked at what is sent in messages. I do not believe in being cruel, certainly not it can be avoided, we're all in this gig called life together. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Now if only you were Bi-Curious...Mmmm. Wouldn't we be blessed, the pleasure would certainly be all our's and we most definitely would treasure having you devour that appetite which wants to come out!! When all the stars align. 💑 - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    ...sounds like a fabulous idea. 😉 - Posted from rhpmobile

  • johnisfun3

    johnisfun3

    9 years ago

    I would suggest to delete these kind of messages and move on. Some of these mean low life clowns are not worth the frustuation they can cause. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Direction and control are both folly which partners/ sexual or other gain connection with. Pleasure is about being introduced to an idea which is yet to be had. Can't do that every day?!? Time and "other" experience pays like a warm touch on a cold day. You can't dictate the weather. Intensity, like any measure on a scale would give to pleasure for each person "wanting/needing/craving" said experience. Looking forward is planning, cocking your head and looking around the room gives dimension. Live, fuck, love, laugh, scream, cry, pant, beg, crave, enjoy - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Best post ever - so I took a look at your profile and was gobsmacked. I'd like to share a conversation with you over a coffee or 10. (Have grounded since this thread was posted). - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Well said!! Even as a female Dominant, I must say I know exactly where you are coming from. I constantly receive messages from men who seem to have mistaken me for a fetish fantasy dispensing machine. In fact, I am a member on fetlife and a few of my friends in the scene have heard me say the very words you used as the subject line for this thread. I am kinky not easy!

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Forgive me my question: By why would you be on your knees if you didn't want to be there assuming it's a part of you wanting to have fun with someone else. Maybe you are beeing balanced on the border of what's acceptable and whats not, however shouldn't everyone be there by his own free will? And shouldn't the one balancing you know you enough to catch you to moment you start to fall?

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    I forgot: about your inconvenient messages: The nicest gems are hidden within the most mud, ignore the mud, maybe you ll find a lovely gem within the messages another day... Doesn't help but has a nice ring to it.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    8 years ago

    Kinks or connections. Seems a lot of people on these sites have one common factor and that is the drive to want to push boundaries. Maybe it's the strong connection we all seek to explore these kinks. But then people that form connections fear creeps in and maybe the Kinks are suppressed and the drive of pushing boundaries is put to the side due to fears. I found what I thought was someone to explore bdsm as early on he established such a deep connection with me. But when I actually questioned myself and not merely acting on impulse It was clear he had no intention of loving me. I was drawn to him as he could clearly entice a woman to bring out my competitive side of pushing the boundaries using the loving connection we formed. I was a pawn in a game, that is all I was to him. He walked straight past me in public not even acknowledging my existence after we had been very intimate for quite a long period of time. Also basically filled me with hollow lies after his game was over. So I guess the whole kink side of me I question as to whether it's just a mental game of pushing boundaries. I have so many other healthy avenues to push boundaries now. Do I miss this guy for sure. But I can't keep disrespecting myself, I want a healthy person to complement me not a competitive person who just Idealizes, devalues then disregards without even realising the pain they put others through. I want to share with others not be with a guy that only wants control. I love control but in a respectful manner of communication. He would have to relinquish control to communicate and well not sure if he is capable :( At end of day it comes down to respect for yourself first. Que sera ! - Posted from rhpmobile

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